I was leaving my gym on Wednesday and one of my classmates was waiting on the sidewalk. I said goodbye and headed to my car when a small voice inside said, ,"Maybe she needs a ride." Immediately I went through the mental gymnastics of a hummingbird on speed. What if she needs a ride everyday? What if I'm going to have to be her transportation? How can I do that, given my time constraints? Do You want me to invest in her life? Am I ready for another relationship? On and on it went in the space of 15 seconds -- amazing, isn't it?
Finally that little voice said, "Just offer her a ride." So I did. She didn't need one after all -- she was waiting for a friend.
I share that because I think it is going to be fairly normal as I seek to live intentionally. It isn't that I'm going to be scaling the heights of radical obedience and changing the world in the process in 2010. I can romanticize that idea and spend the entire year telling myself I'm ready for the BIG CALL. But I'm guessing that far more often the Lord will simply be nudging me to do some small thing. No glamour, no grand sacrifice -- just little acts of obedience, which Jesus said was way better in the end.
To be honest, I wish I were far more holy about this. Will I ever get to the point where those mind games don't have to happen before I simply say "Yes"?